blowing it.

I am.... truly blowing it. I am blowing it as a mother, a wife a friend (like I have any of those)..... I am even blowing it in the exercise department. Funny thing is I know I am blowing it and still I do SQUAT, why you ask because I am a dip that is why. because I have no motivation because because because. they are all just excuses anyway so I am just not going to give anymore. needless to say I suck.