Its NEw Years

our new years eve was a blast me 2 1/2 year old rand around the house saying "we're having a party, we're having a party"



my kids decorated the ceiling fan

and we watched Mr bean's vacation and HSM2. the kids wore hats and blew horns

and mom played with the camera. This is what I got

oh the last day of the year.

part of me is excited at the possibilities of the new year and the other is sad to see the the last turn to memories. I was just thinking this morning that this time last year i was out to here(-------) pregnant, and actually enjoying the PG. Now I have a sweet little girl learning to crawl, eating everything in sight and still not gaining too much, though I suppose that if I crawled as much as she did I wouldn't gain to much either.

The last year has been interesting to say the least. I have (lets see) been pg, gotten pneumonia, had a beautiful baby, started the best exercise for me, reached a senior green in that sport and going to blue in just over 4 weeks. I have seen babies born and my mother pass to the other side, bought a house watched it flood, and wish for nicer things. Made new friends and wished for old ones to be closer when I needed hugs. I have found ways to fight depression and won and lost a few bouts with it. I have discovered that my body is older than I would like to believe, and stronger than I thought. I have forgotten and regained testimonies and found things to believe in so strongly that at times it hurts when other don't believe the same. I have felt the compassion of others and long for the day when that compassion can be returned. I have enjoyed and struggle with parenthood, tried to be a better home maker (still working on that) and found ways to truly enjoy who I am.

I have hopes for the new year with new strategies put in place for house home and family. I hope and pray that we strive to do better in all that we do be it play family work or religion. I wish this for all as well.

Please have a happy new year and make the best of it.

not so pretty in pink

well this is a fine kettle of fish I am in. my dd has a really nasty case of pink eye, and while I love it when she shares things, I really wish she hadn't shared this. I woke this morning and only one eye wanted to wake up. It burns and hurts and just plain doesn't feel good.

To top it off I all ready had a nastish cold virusy thing going so now I have a very blood shot eye and a cold virusy thing.

Top that off with the fact that the baby doesn't want me to put her down and The Breeze just keep teasing the baby and we have a great sounding house this morning. not to mention the fact that i AM NOT going to church because of it.

The good news is that dh paid tithing.

Which way do I go.

I am begining to think that may be the pain that has been growing in my side is imagined and that I just need to say get over it and go on with life. I went to see a surgeon today and he is ordering ANOTHER set of US and then we go from there.

I am not one that like poking an proding. I don't have time for poking a proding my husband doesn't have time fort he poking and proding because every time I have to be poked and proded he has to come home from work which costs us money. All the tests well they cost us money. I have bills coming out my ears which basically means agian at Christmas we have NO MONEY. I am tired of not being able to get mey kids what they need much less things that I know they would like and I am Tired of feeling lik a pauper beggging for hand outs from my rich and welthy neighbors.

BBAAAAAHH HUMBUG.

Nuff said.