Ok it is time to show you.

I look at this picture and it makes me cry. HOWEVER it is necessary to remember where I came from to see where I am now. This is me at 225 Maybe more. I couldn't and wouldn't weigh myself then. I was afraid to.

I couldn't take pictures of myself, my hubbie took this of me without me knowing. I blamed the babies, I had 6 of them then, I blamed my husband, I blamed everything but where the blame needed to be which was with me. I put the food in my mouth and I didn't get off my butt.

This is me 8 weeks after I got off my butt. I was 220 and yes I weighed myself, it was part of what we had to do for TKD. It was before my mom died and I knew I wanted to be healthy. My dad had started to have kidney problems, my mom and dad were both diabetics. 2 weeks after this was taken my mother died from obesity. I can't lie to myself, that is why she died. she was overweight. It was a wakeup call for me, I started praying and I really mean I prayed and I prayed day in and day out that Heavenly father would show me how to be a better me and then when opportunities came I would take them. I was taking BC so that I wouldn't get PG. In Feb. of that year, I found out I was pregnant. I thought that was my answer I needed to be ok because I was going to have a baby. 7 weeks later I lost that baby. It broke my heart I was hurt and sad. Mother's day sucked and I didn't even get out of bed. I had put my name in for a drawing and that drawing CHANGED MY LIFE. I can not stress that enough. I WON the right to train for 10 weeks with some FANTASTIC Trainers at Spectrum wellness. The contest ended prematurely but I was a new person. I loved coming into that gym and have some of the staff say hey skinny how are ya or look .... at...you. I have no idea what I weighed when I left but I do know that I was a size 16 and I felt better than I had in my whole life. I was coming up on my Red belt in TKD and I was becoming healthy. I was taking BC and thought everything was great. Well the next Feb stopped me in my tracks. the BC I was taking caused my gallbladder to fail and I had emergency surgery. then I ended up Pregnant. But the result and the conditioning was still there. I was on bed rest but well... I ate much better and bouncing back was easier. I had a beautiful baby girl in december and by August I was back at the gym and back doing things I never could have done just 2 years earlier. Why did it take that long you ask well My dd came emergency C section and I would down and out some more.

This was me in August at the top of a mile hike done with a baby on my back. I wasn't out of breath and I was smiling the whole time. I was about 180 at this time. I loved being in my 16 jeans and my baby with me.
then I got my solid black belt after a year and a half of trying and working ans wanting it. Oreo's (a belt) are bad for you, BTW this is the same Uniform as the above, it is now Too big and actually tied behind my back just so it can stay on.

This picture is one of my favorites it was taken just after the last award ceremony. That is my oldest daughter on my back.... I carried her around the gym. I now weigh around 168 and I wear a size 12. I am not done yet. I have 15 more pounds to go.

I wrote this all down because I want those around me to know that it can be done. One step at a time one change at a time and one prayer at a time.

I have 8 children ranging from 16 to one. I am always in the van and I have little time. This being said Heavenly found me the time he will find you the time.

Love to all my friends young and old.

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