SHe is accident prone

M poor little one year old. I swear she is the biggest monkey and the most accident prone child I have. In the last monthe she has been.....

smooshed by a bed
tripped on the sidewalk
fallen out of her Highchair
fallen offthe table
(btw she was buckled when she did that)
has sheet Rock fall on her
and been almost electrocuted.

Folloowing her around is a full time job I tell ya. the problem is I can't follow her and keep up with the ever growing piles of laundry and dirt in my house.

one more pound

I was only down one more pound today so I sat down with him and I am going to email him as soon as I am done here to see where I can cut the sugars, we think that is where things are going wrong but hey a pound is a pound and the more I work out the better it will be. So who is going to call me at 6 in the morning so that I have to get up cause once I am up it is no big deal to get outside and walk till I can't walk no more. di a lot of squats today so the butt has gotten its work out.

Play Have you ever.

Thank you Jannet

Wow I am not as boring as I thought I got 93 out of the 200 see what you can find.

Here’s what you do: copy the list, then bold the things you have done.

1.Touched an iceberg
2.Slept under the stars
3.Been a part of a hockey fight
4.Changed a baby’s diaper
5.Watched a meteor shower
6.Given more than you can afford to charity
7.Swam with wild dolphins
8.Climbed a mountain
9.Held a tarantula
10.Said “I love you” and meant it
11.Bungee jumped
12.Visited Paris
13.Watched a lightning storm at sea
14.Stayed up all night long and watched the sun rise
15.Seen the Northern Lights
16.Gone to a huge sports game
17.Walked the stairs to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18.Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19.Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
20.Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
21.Had a pillow fight
22.Bet on a winning horse
23.Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24.Built a snow fort
25.Held a lamb
26.Gone skinny dipping
27.Taken an ice cold bath
28.Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
29.Seen a total eclipse
30.Ridden a roller coaster
31.Hit a home run
32.Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
33.Adopted an accent for fun
34.Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35.Felt very happy about your life, even for just a moment
36.Loved your job 90% of the time
37.Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38.Watched wild whales
39.Gone rock climbing
40.Gone on a midnight walk on the beach
41.Gone sky diving
42.Visited Ireland
43.Ever bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44.Visited India
45.Bench-pressed your own weight
46.Milked a cow
47.Alphabetized your personal files
48.Ever worn a superhero costume
49.Sung karaoke
50.Lounged around in bed all day
51.Gone scuba diving
52.Kissed in the rain
53.Played in the mud
54.Gone to a drive-in theater
55.Done something you should regret, but don’t
56.Visited the Great Wall of China
57.Started a business
58.Taken a martial arts class
59.Been in a movie
60.Gone without food for 3 days
61.Made cookies from scratch
62.Won first prize in a costume contest
63.Got flowers for no reason
64.Been in a combat zone
65.Spoken more than one language fluently
66.Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
67.Bounced a check
68.Read - and understood - your credit report
69.Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
70.Found out something significant that your ancestors did
71.Called or written your Congress person
72.Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
73.Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
74.Helped an animal give birth
75.Been fired or laid off from a job
76.Won money
77.Broken a bone
78.Ridden a motorcycle
79.Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100 mph
80.Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
81.Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
82.Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
83.Eaten sushi
84.Had your picture in the newspaper
85.Read The Bible cover to cover
86.Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
87.Gotten someone fired for their actions
88.Gone back to school
89.Changed your name
90.Caught a fly in the air with your bare hands
91.Eaten fried green tomatoes
92.Read The Iliad
93.Taught yourself an art from scratch
94.Killed and prepared an animal for eating
95.Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
96.Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
97.Been elected to public office
98.Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
99.Had to put someone you love into hospice care
100.Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
101.Had a booth at a street fair
102.Dyed your hair
103.Been a DJ
104.Rocked a baby to sleep
105.Dropped a cat from a high place to see if it really lands on all fours
106.Raked your carpet
107.Brought out the best in people
108.Brought out the worst in people
109.Worn a mood ring
110.Ridden a horse
111.Carved an animal from a piece of wood or bar of soap
112.Cooked a dish where four people asked for the recipe
113.Buried a child
114.Gone to a Broadway (or equivalent to your country) play
115.Been inside the pyramids
116.Shot a basketball into a basket
117.Danced at a disco
118.Played in a band
119.Shot a bird
120.Gone to an arboretum
121.Tutored someone
122.Ridden a train
123.Brought an old fad back into style
124.Eaten caviar
125.Let a salesman talk you into something you didn’t need
126.Ridden a giraffe or elephant
127.Published a book
128.Pieced a quilt
129.Lived in an historic place
130.Acted in a play or performed on a stage
131.Asked for a raise
132.Made a hole-in-one
133.Gone deep sea fishing
134.Gone roller skating
135.Run a marathon
136.Learned to surf
137.Invented something
138.Flown first class
139.Spent the night in a 5-star luxury suite
140.Flown in a helicopter
141.Visited Africa
142.Sang a solo
143.Gone spelunking
144.Learned how to take a compliment
145.Written a love-story
146.Seen Michelangelo’s David
147.Had your portrait painted
148.Written a fan letter
149.Spent the night in something haunted
150.Owned a St. Bernard or Great Dane
151.Ran away
152.Learned to juggle
153.Been a boss
154.Sat on a jury
155.Lied about your weight
156.Gone on a diet
157.Found an arrowhead or a gold nugget
158.Written a poem
159.Carried your lunch in a lunchbox
160.Gotten food poisoning
161.Gone on a service, humanitarian or religious mission
162.Hiked the Grand Canyon
163.Sat on a park bench and fed the ducks
164.Gone to the opera
165.Gotten a letter from someone famous
166.Worn knickers
167.Ridden in a limousine
168.Attended the Olympics
169.Can hula or waltz
170.Read a half dozen Nancy Drew or Hardy Boys books
171.Been stuck in an elevator
172.Had a revelatory dream
173.Thought you might crash in an airplane
174.Had a song dedicated to you on the radio or at a concert
175.Saved someone’s life
176.Eaten raw whale
177.Know how to tat, smock or do needlepoint
178.Laughed till your side hurt
179.Straddled the equator
180.Taken a photograph of something other than people that is worth framing
181.Gone to a Shakespeare Festival
182.Sent a message in a bottle
183.Spent the night in a hostel
184.Been a cashier
185.Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
186.Joined a union
187.Donated blood or plasma
188.Built a campfire
189.Kept a blog
190.Had hives
191.Worn custom made shoes or boots
192.Made a PowerPoint presentation
193.Taken a Hunter’s Safety Course
194.Served at a soup kitchen
195.Conquered the Rubik’s cube
196.Know CPR
197.Ridden in or owned a convertible
198.Found a long lost friend
199.Helped solve a crime
200.Responded to a NJP newsletter

Ok, if you’ve made it through this, it’s your turn!

Of course I didn't have the camera

Yopu know the feeling just when you perform your best and do the best you have ever done on anything you don't have the camera with you. Well that was me last night.

We did our Demo team thing and of course I shattered both boards the first time and guess who didn't have a camera to catch the action. Me. I do have to say though that it was very exciting to be able to do that. I was really worried because during the demo at testing I didn't break till my 3rd go round and that can be embarrassing. I also have to remember to keep my mouth shut. I was trying to coach my kids and they are better at this than I am so I just need to remember to shut up. but all in all the demo when well and I broke 2 9 inch across one inch thick boards BOOYAH !!!!!!!!!

exercise thought and goals

First I must thank Anne for my first goal. When she put on her wedding dress I KNEW that is what I wanted. I want to be able to put my dress on and have it fit wonderfully. yes WHEN I get there you will be the first to see. 2 goal is a size 14 when i get there and still loose weight I will be over joyed, I really don't expect my body to do the twiggy thing. For me that really isn't realistic but I can expect to be a healthy toned person. Also I want to do a 5K at the end of August. I don't know why but to me that would mean I was a much healthier person. I am going to look for one sometime the end of August. If any of you know where I can look PLEASE do tell. I think if I get it marked and then have to do it then I will. I am hoping the at least one of my trainer would be willing to do this with me but we shall see.

I am finding that I really enjoy going to this class and look forward to that time in my day. Now I just need to make that the same for my morning cardio as well I do like the free step on the Wii but there are too many kids to do that and not feel weird. I could go back to the Gym and just get on the treadmill but that to me is REALLY boring. So I HAVE to figure out how do get my butt out of bed and then out the door before the crack o dawn on my own because I asked for a partner and didn't get one. so there you have it. I could go with the gal that signed us up for this torture bt she is at work at 3 in the morning and I can't make myself get up then. So out I go see you later for a journaling update.

One week down

11 to go. My my body is completely torn. I can tell it loves the exercise all ready. Although I wish I could do it with out being so sore right now. the trainer says that will go away more than likely by the end of 4 weeks and I will begin to wish it back,I have a hard time believing that. I have a cold and it has affected that soreness a little as well. I do love going though. Today on the way home I was thinking what is going to happen at the end of the 12 weeks when I CRAVE being there and no longer have the money to go. Not to mention the distance. My body is all ready transforming I have lost 2 pounds and more than likely more than that because of the muscles that are building ( muscle does weight more than fat). I find my self wanting my stomach in and keeping it in longer and longer.

I put my wedding dress up on my wall next to my bed and that is my goal and yes I will take a pick when I reach it.

If you would like to see the torture chamber they use to hurt us here it is.

http://www.spectrumwellness.org/photo_gallery.htm

if it doesn't link ( I am sure it won't because I ain't smarticle like that) copy and paste it and if you don't have the pics of the gym go to photo gallery and then gym.

soon I believe they are going to put up pics of the 4 of us as well and i will let you know when that is.

well off for a shower because I sweat like a pic and I have all ready eaten.

A Mothers day for My mom.

I am working on a mother's day gift for my mother. I know that I won't be able to do these songs as well as these people do them, and I think I always sound like there are marbles suck up my nose when I hear a recording but anyway. I know she would want me to sing them. she always thought I had a beautiful voice. I miss her so much right now. I couldn't even call my dad to tell him thank you for the wonderful flowers he sent that really made my day,


Anyway here are the songs I am working on singing. This first on is a song that never failed to be sang in the car when we went on vacations. even if it was only up logan canyon and took no more than an hour.



The second is the last thing I got from my mother for Mothers day. she gave me this Cd last year just about NOW when my Ky was blessed and they came for the blessing. I don't know if I will get through this for a while the last verse is a killer for me right now.




I have the first one done but I am not sure how to get it on here.

a temple trip

SO I went to the temple on Friday. I was really hoping to know what I was suppose to do next. Well I do feel now that this child that I lost was my son, I am also more than pretty sure I have more to come. That being said I was unable to know how many (though I hope not too many I don't think my brain can do much more) or when. I also had specific prayers and I know the words didn't come from me. Prayers that friends in pain would be led to the Dr's that would help them. Friends who were having some troubles making decisions, that there would be clarity to make those decisions clear. I am seeing at least some of those prayers happen all ready and I love that when you ask your HF that he takes the action necessary for what is needed. I continue to pray those prayers for those that need them and I will continue to make them specific as to help those that need. I found that in the temple I realized that I need to just worry about what I am doing to better our family and the rest will fall into place.

LOST

As in I have lost a baby. This is all I could think of at church today. about how true, and at the same time ironic that statement is. True because in a very really sense I lost something. I don't have anymore and I didn't purposely send it away. The irony came in the sense that I never REALLY had it. I mean how does one loose something they have never held in their hands or seen with their eyes. I only had him ( and yes i really feel this was my sweet son) in my heart. Funny how fast I could go from not really wanting to be preggers to fully looking forward to the little boy clothes at Christmas time ( buntings are so dang cute) and then having that seemingly ripped away. I can't put up lost posters there is nothing to find. People keep asking me what they can do for me. What can another do for a broken heart. There is a real hole there, thankfully I have my kids. They are a big help, most times without even knowing it. somewhat understand those that have chosen to fall in to depression and just let it consume them. Please don't worry about me. I am Ok as far as that goes, I promise. I have to much to do in this life to let that happen, but I do understand it.
anyway just some more blabber from the lost child.

Going Home

FOrgive me if this is a bit disjointed. I had these thoughts going north today and have to put them down before I forget them.

Like going back home

I am going on a trip that feeling like going home after being gone for a long time. Familiar sites and sounds come back,
As the miles pass behind.
Voices all but forgotten come flooding to my mind,
I find my self thinking fondly of things I left behind.
As I walk through the doors there are some slight differences,
But the feel is still the same.
Warm caring and peaceful, full of joy not pain.
Listening to wiser ones, and feeling their concern.
Hugs and touches of tenderness just when you need it most.
As I walk back through the doors, I vow it won't be long,
Before I return to this place, it feels like going home.


not real good I know but the words were there and I just had to get them out.