Told You I would return and report.

SO this is where I was lead.

WORD OF WISDOM

as interpreted by me.
section 89 of D&C

The first thing that hit me is that this isn't a commandment but more of a guideline (seems to me we had a discussion about this on one of the boards I frequent), but that it is the will of our father in Heaven for the return to him of our bodies. this is in verse 2

It comes with a promise and has been adapted for us. ( so do you think maybe it was harder before JS.)V3 Itis a result of the bad things that were done ( dang those tobacco spitting men) and it to be used as a warning. v4 The wine thing I know was chanfed later and the next verse makes that clear. V5 I cross referanced Prov. 20:1 Wine is a mocker and strong drink is raging and whosoever is decieved thereby is not wise. (this totally explains drunk stupid people.) It is to be used for washing. ( I am thinking rubbing alcohol because I would hate to smell like rum)V7

Tobacco is not for the Body or belly of man but for sick cows. (ewe )V8

Hot drinks are not for the body( oh please don't let that mean hot chocolate and herb tea) V9

Herbs are used for nature and Man. ("sigh" that means the herb tea is cleared, wonder if chocolate should be an herb?)V10

EVERY herb and fruit in thier season is to be used with understanding and thankfulness ( this one I had look up so I went laymans terms) V11

To me this was the big one you know eat meat don't eat meat how do we eat meat when do we eat meat. so here we go. Fleash(meat) of beasts and fowl are for man to be used with Thankfulness and sparingly.V12 BUT not only in times of winter or need. V13

ALL grain is to be used for man and beast, it is the staff of life for ALL that live and breathe.V14 (this next came as a shock to me) THESE (grains) are to be used ONLY in times of famine and excess hunger. ( wow the staff of life is for famine? hmm How much have I eaten all ready today? )V15

all grain is for man and as is fruit( didn't he all ready say that guess it needed to be said again)V16 1Then he explained the grains and made me happy by talking about barley being used as a mild drink (yeah Postum) V17

THen comes that promise he talked about. for those that keep these things in thier hearts (again layman terms) and use them will have health and strength in their bones. V18 They shall find wisdom and great treasures of Knowledge. (for me I am hoping this means that all the thinking power I had as a teenager(LOL) will come back even after 7 kids.) V19 They shall run and not be weary and shall walk and not faint( kind of self explanatory) V20 The destorying angel Shall pass by (Long Life)

I guess this has been the desires of my heart lately because this is where I was lead and so I studied and pondered it. The words written here are the conclusions I have come to, I am not saying they will be your conclusions but they are mine. I pray that you will read and pray for your self. BTW as I came to these conclusions the spirit burned in my chest and I have missed that feeling for soooo long.

Now I just need to adapt this and use it in daily life, I have a feeling that if I can do this, the weight that is plaguing me ( i really don't want to die like my mother) will be resolved.

I feel like I am failing.

and that I am disappointing HF in helping to return his children back to him. I have kids that steal and don't think twice about it, in fact they can come up with a lie so fast it would make ones head spin. So all ready I am a down by 2. My house looks like a tornado quite right on top of it. You know like in Twister where the tornado stops and all the stuff falls right where it is, that would be my house. I am so impatient when it comes to spiritual stuff with my kids that I can't stand to do it for very long and I am afraid that my kids know that and so try harder to annoy me when I try and do the right thing. I know it is just the debil trying to put me down but right now he is doing a mighty fine job. Ok that is enough for the night I am going to go and read a random page of scripture. I will let you know what I find.

The woodhouse family.

On ABC tonight they showed the woodhouse family and you may notice below the house picture, this was their house. My home is the one they lost. I have met and talked with Kimberly myself and know what a kind and sweet spirit she is. I know the prayers she prayed to have a family that needed he home. Prayer that we answered for her and she answered for us. I wish and pray for them all the best in this life and the next.

He is out of the dog house (for now)

My Dh has completely redeemed himself. He spent about 80 bucks last night with me. He took me out on a surprise date. We went to the theater and he bought Imax tickets to I am Legend. we had an hour and a half till show time so He took me to a sushi and steak bar. That is where you sit at the grill and the artist's ( can't think of a better word for them) cook your Japanese dinner in front of you. Our's was named Taco and he was so funny, and OMHeavens the food was FANTASTIC. I don't know if they have a AI (means love) but if they do you have got to try it. I had hibachi Chicken and shrimp with steamed rice ans he had garlic steak, and we shared a California roll I love sushi. We ran back to the theater (yes it took that long) and watched I am legend. The first 30 minutes of the movie I had to get used to how big and clear the picture was it made me a little sea sick. then I was sad at the end because dang it the good guy is suppose to win and live dang it. sorry if that is a spoiler to anyone. Next I am going to go and get my running shoes so that when I get upset with my kids I don't have to worry I am just going for a run.

I may never know.

I just turned myself back around from going to the one place I truly wanted to be. I was going to go to TKD I was ready had all the in my car had the children bribed to be good and everything. Pulled out of the driveway praying again that they would be safe and my entire body said turn around and for the first time in a long time that is what I did. Now if all my kids were awake and dressed I would still have them in the car on the way to TKD and things would be fine I am sure but I am not going to risk whatever may happen because I didn't listen. I may never know why I am not going but at least I know that I did the right thing.

so this is my house

I am not ready for you to see the inside yet ( I need to do some kind of decorating) but this is the out side of our house.



I am trying to optimistic as seen by the watermelons at my entryI had a bench there and will again soon I hope right it is being used in my kitchen due the the breakage of 2 chairs. this winter. More to follow as I improve my home.

So your husband is assistant cubmaster.

What does this mean for you. I will tell you what it means. It means on pack night he comes home early and you get to run to the store for everything that he forgot to get. Like an arrow and a tom tom and a poster board with an arrow drawn on it.

Ok now here is an interesting fact. After Christmas Wal*mart has NO arrows Not even the little toy dress up kind. and they don't have toy drums either (unless you want the whole music se and then you can get the one you hit with your bum oh and your 3). They didn't even have the LED lights that we needed.

SO as said wife of the cub master here is what I did (thank you Jeana). I went to hobby lobby grabbed a dole, some leather, and an arrowhead ( and yes they had those) then I grabbed some feather and other decorations and I did this.




The leather needs a bit of stretching but it worked great and the arrow will be the one used for the whole year.

So I got to thinking.

The goals I set are great but only one of them will benefit me emotionally and that is only if I loose the weight that is now plaguing me.

I was reading this morning and my friends have their dd's playing guitar. I used to so love to play the guitar. I just never stuck with it. I have a sad lonely guitar my mother gave me up in my closet and I think it is time that it came out of hiding. I think I will be going to get a learn to play book from the music store after TKD and I am going to teach myself to play again. I know that good music soothes the hear and i have always love the sound of guitar music. I just wish I hads someone to call me and ask me how often I have practiced this week. LOL

Ok so the first project of the new year is complete

I decided that with the Chore wheel I would have things set up so that I could do a larger project on my room and maybe this way things will stay clean AND be more organized.



SO I had the dining room and the pantry (which was worse than it looks in the picture) was mine to tackle. Now don't ask me why the pantry is in the dining room I don't know. I would have preferred the room that are in that wall to be flipped and maybe that is something we will do in the future but for now the bathroom is in the hall by the stairs to the basement and the pantry is isn the dining room.

Anyway I reorganized my pantry.I makes so much more sense when things are all in one place and you can find them Rather than scatter from heck to breakfast.

so here is my job. Oh and please ignore the time stamp I haven't figured out how to set the time on the new digital.

Ok NO resolutions but

I do have some goals for 08 so that as my kids say 08 will be great.

Goal 1 to blog more often I am thinking at least 3 times a week if only to say I am still alive.

#2 up the exercise I do it 3 times a week but I am thinking daily is more in order to help with many other problems.

#3 go healthy one month at a time. this month I am soy milked. I will try skim next month just to see what works better ( I actually like soy i know weird) I believe with soy it gives me just a bit more leeway.

#4 kind of goes with #3 I need to organize one week one month one day at a time. If you have ideas I am always open to them.

#5 have a 400 dollar party for Lemongrass by July. This is one I Don't have to do but I know writing it down will always help so there you go.

I Know there will be more but for now this will do so that I can not overwhelm myself.

Well that explains one of them

My oldest dd mystery attitude has partially been explained. She is no longer my little girl. This morning sore throat and all she became a big girl. Not sure that I am ready for this all though she s older than I was when I started so I guess I should relax a bit. she said she would have screamed if she could have but she is horse so there for no screams. I don't remember how I reacted I am sure it wasn't too much different.

My husband acts like he is ready to move out. He usually teases me about wearing a diaper and he won't even acknowledge her today.

Oh and I am pretty sure the whole world is picking one me thing that my son is doing has a lot to do with puberty too. the good news is that there is no bleeding involved for him.

Somebody remind me

why I keep having kids. Right now all I see are teething babies that turn into not wanting to Potty train toddlers that turning into crying 5 year olds that turn into tattling 8 year olds that turn inot defiant 11 year olds that turn into know it all teenagers.

Can you tell I am not having the best day I have 1 child count them one out of 7 right now that isn't crying or whining.

Kyla is teething ( I hope) and she doesn't want to be put down for more than about 10 minutes unless by some miracle you have a food that she can eat.

Then there is the big problem ( you see I am now one handed due to baby). Brianne has decided that when she poops it is fine to take off the diaper she is wearing and go naked. She does this when she pees too, but she will not go on the toilet. Today she got the Big D. Which if she would leave the dang diaper on would be just fine tell me and I can change it and go on with life> DO you think she will do that? NO she takes it off and then I end up following her around because I either have to clean up after her or put the diaper back on.

My kids go back to school on Monday and to be honest I am so looking forward to this that I just might jump for joy when it happens.

On January 3rd 1992

I married the most handsome man I know.

Here is how the story goes.

Just after most of my friends graduated from HS and started college. My best friend and I started institute, it was a turn around from me though NOT a full 180. In April of 1991 My best friend and I were at the TUTE to watch the Jazz in the playoffs the Tute made a big thing out of it. So being the BIG Bball fans that we were, we ended up playing Chess (badly) in the Lobby. In walks My BF"s 2 brothers one that is much younger and quite frankly a pain in the neck and the other My Randy. He helped me with Chess and her other brother helped her. We later found out that he had seen me a long time before that and I had talked to him when he was in the NAVY but never had really seen or talked to each other face to face. He had just come home from the NAVY that day. My BF was helping me get back into the church swing of things and Sunday when she came to pick me up for the singles ward she was in a little red ford escort with once again her older brother. He asked me out for that Wednesday and I don't think after that night we spent more than 2 days without talking to each other. about 6 months went by and we would find out selves talking about family and how many WE would have and WHEN WE were married and I guess my mom had about enough of us talking like that because she told us that we needed to make a decision. So the next time the subject came up of when we were married and when we had kids, I told him that the next time it happened I would take it as a proposal. It took him 2 days and he was at it again on our way back to my house from his work. So I turned to him and ask him " So is this a proposal" and his reponse was " I guess so, but if we are going to do this we are doing it right." See his mother had taught him that if you were going to get married you were going to do it in the temple. This was in July and we told his sister when she got home from Mexico.

( our engagement pic)

It was a hard road but we did what was needed( including getting a license (ME) and a GED (again me)). It took us about 6 more months between the repentance problems and the planning(2 mothers in college to work around), but finally On January 3rd 1992 we were sealed in the Logan UT temple for all eternity.

I swear we were happy for the first 3 years of our marriage we got to know each other and were friends Randy always worried about me and when I did dumb things he was there for me. He told me once not to go out on New Years after 1 pm, but I did anyway to take a friend home and I got clipped by a Tbird going too fast and the driver was drunk. Then there was the time that I was into that stupid role playing thing and well it got me in trouble cause the guy was just a little too into me. I had him over and boy did he have a fit turns out the reason I was so sick was that I was pg with our first child.

(this is the pg pic, the shirt was my mom's and I now own it. This pic was taken in 1994).

I can't say our life together has been easy but I don't think I could change it. I found after 10 years that my husband not only believed in love at first site but that he has loved me from th moment he met me, (ok so he is slow to the punch) we fight we yell we even go to bed mad but there is not a day when I don't talk to my best friend or at least wonder how he is doing and I just wonder what more I will find out in the next 5 years. You know those years where we will deal with Teenagers and graduations. I can't believe that not only am I old enough to be the mother of a teenager but also that I have been with the same man for as long as I have and that I still care so much about him and what he thinks of me. Love you Randy.

My sweet girl

On this day 8 years ago my sweet Janet made her way into the world on the ONLY and BIGGEST blizzard that Davis county had ever seen. She was 5 weeks early (par for the course with me by now) and when I went in the sky was grey but not snowing. I kept thinking that if hse had been born on day earlier we could have been set for life. Oh well 7 hours later the Nurse called the Dr to have him come back in because I was now at an 7 and he needed to get back. A drive that should have taken the poor Dr 5 minutes took him an entire hour and he barely made it in time to catch her as her cute little bum hit the bed. she weighed all of 6 pounds and 6 ounces and barely filled the Dr hands

(they were HUGE sorry the pic is sideways but check out those hand)

she continued to grow and become so beautiful. she was the cutest baby hanging out waiting for he big sister to get on the bus.

The more she grows the more beautiful she becomes and I sometimes worry that with her personality she will be an easy target for the boys. Her sweetness just explodes out of her and she worries about almost everything.

She has had her challenges and we sometimes worry about her for all her worries. She loves the church and really looks forward to being baptized. She is sad to have to wait but we waiting for her to get her black belt.

This is my Janet I see great things in her and KNOW she will be a great at anything she wants to do.

There are strange things done

in the midnight sun by woman who fold and fold.


I had some pretty weird thoughts last night as I was folding laundry. you gonna hear them like it or not.

so I was thinking to fold or not to fold underwear. See most of the time I don't fold underwear it just goes in the drawer. But that got me thinking of how many people do or don't? if you do do you do you do it in pairs or singles? Does that include the bras and little panties or just the boxers and undershirts? I ended up folding in pairs just to see what I had and what I needed, I have to admitt that I have a lot more room in my drawer.

I think though that I am laundry drunk and the intoxication will continue because I am tired of the mess.