I may never know.

I just turned myself back around from going to the one place I truly wanted to be. I was going to go to TKD I was ready had all the in my car had the children bribed to be good and everything. Pulled out of the driveway praying again that they would be safe and my entire body said turn around and for the first time in a long time that is what I did. Now if all my kids were awake and dressed I would still have them in the car on the way to TKD and things would be fine I am sure but I am not going to risk whatever may happen because I didn't listen. I may never know why I am not going but at least I know that I did the right thing.